31 January 2011

Still no sound in my ear. Homework. Writing. Some 3d dot Hero (what?). Blueberry waffles and vegetarian sausage. Practices scales. New song? A Cadd9 E7sus2 D.

23 January 2011

Worlds better today. Sleeping on the floor helped. I think I'm going to sleep on the floor once more tonight. Cleaned my apartment and watched football. Started to organise the old on my computer. Back to work tomorrow.

22 January 2011

I'm sleeping on the floor tonight. I really like the floor. If I could get a real futon - thin ones - like the ones Japanese people really sleep on I'd sleep on the floor regularly. Helps my back and is a lot more comfortable. I'm also taking it easy tonight. There's a party a friend of mine is having a block away. I made a token visit. But I want to sleep properly tonight. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.

20 January 2011

I feel better but still pretty terrible. My semispinalis whether of cervical or capitis varieties aches. My throat feels as though a hole has been jabbed into it. My left ear drum may have ruptured. I'm out of breath and my eyes burn dry. Rhabdomyolysis, I really hope not. Can lead to acute renal failure. I don't think so. But I have been pressing myself too hard. Three hours of daily exercise with both running and lifting, and I was sick last week. I'm not sure what would have happened yesterday if i hadn't made myself eat. And I came within a few semi-conscious seconds of not being able to do so. If I could barely think my body was precipitously more immobile. But that wasn't my biggest fear. I've become used to being alone, but laying there and knowing that there was no one to help frightened me more than thinking about what would have happened if I hadn't gotten up.

19 January 2011

I woke up today completely dehydrated. It was scary. It got worse as the day went on. No appetite. No desire to move or even drink. Every joint in my body scrapped together. I made breakfast: tea, yoghurt and a bagel. But I couldn't eat it. I forced myself to drink a can of soda. Class was literally painful. Then I had a job interview. I had to fake it. I think I faked it OK. I got got home and crashed. Well I crawled in a ball and my mind went mush. I didn't want to get it. I still had no appetite. I forced myself to eat pancakes even though they had no flavour - they were tasteless. But I think it helped.

18 January 2011

Really good workout today. School is OK. This semester feels strange. I wish something would happen. Everything seems "droning".

17 January 2011

MLK day. Wrote an essay on medical ethics. Are maleficence and malfeasance the same thing? Can't wait to get back into the gym. Would have gone today but it rained all day. Dreary. Finished a technique study. I wanted to see if I could use ink on canvas. I can I think. Next I'm going to try black gesso.